boring days!

not in the mood to blog .....
is juz so boring these few days..
will update blog when i feel like it :s

Weekends!

Its boring weekend! All i did was eat sleep watch anime~.~ Even though its boring, i found out i actually love dancing and cooking! Juz started my break dance class on Friday! Its fantastic. Too bad I am slow learner.. sigh.. Its ok.. I will juz need to practice harder. =D My hands and legs still pain from the practice. Due to this i can't go to gym. Anyway, lets talk bout cooking! Gosh! Cooking is sth i realize i am starting to like! Man i love nice foods! Therefore i shall learn how to cook more variety of foods! And of cos i hope i can cook sth nice for ' her ' ! hehe... Cooking is fun man.. Guys shall learn cooking! lol

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Boring weekends lead me to a world of loneliness! Its such a dark cruel empty world! Why cruel? Cause it makes u think of your loves one and no doubt, memories which you threw away ages ago! But this time its different, I smile when i think of u! For juz a moment, 'she' pop up and your are gone! Whats happening? Its weird! Really weird.... I actually feels like hugging ' her' tight, I wanna hold ' her' hand , I wanna smell 'her' hair and I wanna tell 'her' ... you are so cute! Yeah , I felt that! Maybe 'she' took over your place? I hope so...

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Sunday night which is tonight, I miss my mei(s). I told them i heart them! lols so funny... all same reaction! Alright maybe I am lame. =D But i juz wanna let them know i care and love them. =) To my mei(s)... though i can't help u much in ur love problems.. can't help u stop missing him... cant help u reduce the sufferings, but I am willing to be there listening to u.. Though i can't lend u my shoulder, I can share ur feelings. If you are sad , I have no reason to smile and be happy too. =) You all are important to me therefore i wish u all to be happy! I juz wanna see smiles crafted on all your face. If can let me bear all your suffering and sadness. You all shall be happy and enjoying. =) I love u all! <3 ( as my mei =p )

I juz can't sleep! =.=

Seal the sadness in memory,

while touching the heart quietly.

Behind the smile,

it is the tears of my loneliness.

In order to be tougher,

I will keep improving myself.

Trying to defend,

trying to believe,

the reason in turning into a smile.

Agitated heart,

lonely heart,

I'll juz take it all.

If only i have the chance,

I will never let you go again.

I will follow the shine,

and march towards it.

At the end,

will be telling you

I love u, babe!

I really do

really really do <3

It's thursday.

Time past really really faz. Man its thursday. Weekends coming soon. Tomorrow, there's MIP test! gosh i am not prepared! Hell Ya!! I'm gonna be dead! Its 10 pm yet i still don't have the mood to study. Really really don't have the mood now. Anyway, I will try my best for the test tomorrow. Who knows luck might be on my side? And yeah, tomorrow will be a better day. I hope! =/

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2 years. Ya it's ard 2 years already! I thought i had u off my mind. I thought i really had stop missing you. But tonight, u suddenly pop up in my mind. All these while all my feelings all my love and my memories for u sealed deep in my heart .. are running wild in my mind. I was wrong. Never have i thought, u are still keeping a spot in my heart. You know how suffering it is to miss someone? How hard it is to love someone? How miserable my life was without you? You will never know and u shall never know. =) I actually felt like crying but I juz can't cry it out. There some part of my heart aches. Its PAIN! REALLY PAIN! Maybe it has always being wrong for me to fall in love with you. But if there's another chance for me to choose, sorry I will still choose to love you. Why? I don't know the reasons or maybe there's no reasons. =)

You will never come back to me. The misery u gave me , let's juz end it in memories and let it be history. ( not my ex but someone i love so much =) )

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It was a few days back when i saw this really cute gal. I never see her before but her pics are enough to melt me. She has a really really sweet smile! =) She is not only looks sweet but she is also cute! Her innocence look is juz so wao! Gosh! I hope i know her! Never will know if this will come true. (Err, I am juz admiring her so ppl don't think too much! Maybe it will turn out like what you are thinking but ...I don't wanna hurt anymore heart. Yeah i hurt one and i shall hurt no more. )

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There is too much thing i kept in my heart and my mind. Its reaching the limits. I have no one to talk to or i am not willing to speak it out? Perhaps other than those two, I will not tell anyone. =) Therefore, i shall write everything in my blog! The pressure and the burden - really can't carry it anymore. I shall think bout my health i guess. Yeah i have high blood pressure which i shall care bout. =/ So i will write in here as not much ppl will be reading this- I hope. Damn i am definitely is EMO! =.=